Emotions

It's amazing how your emotions will creep up on you without you even expecting them too. I have finished packing our clothes for our trip and I had one person less to pack for. That really hit me hard this morning. I had to just sit, cry, and smell some of Aaron's clothes this morning that smelled exactly like him. I also have a video of him receiving his step promotion and Bennett and I watched that together. I always cried every time he would share it with some one so I know that this time would be no different. Indeed it was different! I still cried but a little harder. I am just so thankful that we have that video of him.

I spoke to my cousin and my Aunt today to figure out driving times and distances and during each call I ended up crying. My aunt and I spoke of forgiveness and how we need to forgive the girl that make that horrible choice on Oct. 5th that took a son, a husband and a father. I know that I am suppose to do this, so I have, but I know that it is too soon to speak with her. I have had to deal with other serious things in my life and marriage where I had to make a choice to forgive and I did. The decision to forgive was easy, but confronting the person is another story entirely. Luke 6:37 says "Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. "

For those of you who didn't know, Aaron was an organ donor. I have received 2 letters in the mail concerning Aaron and the donation. The 1st letter was that they were able to save blood, skin, bones, and with further testing the corneas of his eyes. The 2nd letter that I received stated that yes in fact that Aaron's eyes were good for 2 transplants. A 79 year old man and an 85 year old man received the corneas from Aaron and now their sight is restored. I was also told that they were used here locally. Even through Aaron's death he was helping others.