Yesterday was 2 months since the last time that I was able to speak to my husband. It is hard not to think of it that way, but it will probably be like that for a long time. I did get lots of phone calls this week from people asking me how I have been doing. I guess that they probably realize the date coming up as well.
Those emotions are still flying like a roller coaster for us here. I was driving to the base commissary the other day and just lost it. I'm sure that the person driving next to me thought I was crazy. Oh well they don't know the pain and the loneliness unless they have walked in my shoes. The biggest thing that I have been dealing with lately is the fact that I can not just pick up the phone and call him whenever I please or the fact that he will never call me again. I just want to talk to him one more time.
Samuel is having a rough week as well. He lashes out in anger to his brother Chandler for little tiny things. He will be going tonight with our Youth minister to a magic thing so I am hoping that Kylan will be able to get him to open up.
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Christina,
I know I will never know how you are feeling. I just can not imagine. I do want to tell you that I am still praying for you all. I just wish I can comfort you. I hurt for you, espeally when I have read your blog like this one. I pray that the book I gave you all can help you all work through this. Love you all so much, please hang in there. Love jeanne
I see the countless Christmas Trees around the world below,
with tiny lights, like heaven's stars, reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away that tear,
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,but
the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring,
for it is beyond description, to hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me. I see the pain inside your heart,
but I am not so far away. We really aren't apart. So be happy for me dear ones. You know I hold you dear,
and be glad I'm spending Christmas, with Jesus Christ this year.
I send you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above.
I send you each a memory, of my undying love.
After all "Love" is the gift, more precious than pure gold.
It was always most import in the stories Jesus told.
Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do,
for I can't count the blessing or love he has for each of you.
So, have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear.
Remember, I'm spending Christmas, with Jesus Christ this year.
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