Yesterday( I wrote this on Wed) was officially the last day of school for the 2007-2008 school year. I am overflowing with enthusiasm as I sit here staring at my computer(witch by the way is on the fritz). So, the 1st day of Summer technically for my kids was today...I have already heard....I'm bored, stop it, quit that, don't touch, that's mine, leave me alone, can we do this, can we do that, MOM...MOM...MOM...ahhhh calgon take me away!!!!!!!! And this is only the 1st day of summer...what is a girl to do? I am going to take multiple trips.... one to PA, KY, FL, SC, and to TX. that should keep us good and busy for the summer break!! Oh yeah and my mom and Aaron's parents are going to come and visit. In the mean time I am going to keep them busy doing things around here, like pulling weeds, mowing the grass(if it ever decides to let the sun shine again), vacuuming the floor, so on and so on.....April, I might not need you to come and clean the whole summer( I bet you will like that) :)
Lets see the 1st day that they were out of school we did absolutely nothing!! I am on 6 different medications for various things and seem to have no energy what so ever!! They played all day and I did nothing...what a lazy bum I was. Oh well, I think we all have those days every once in a while..don't we?
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
time, emotions, & the Bride of Christ
Time....Time....Time...... We all think that we have all the time in the world. In reality you really don't! It all can be stripped away from you in just one split second. When you go through what I have been through you look at things differently. I know now that when you care about or love someone you need to tell them how you feel because you might not get the chance to later.
I am so amazed how time just goes on. It has been 7 months since I have lost my husband. Just when I feel as though I can move on(those are not the words that I would particularly choose but I can't think of any others right now) something in my life happens to make that moment when I lost my husband feel like it was just yesterday. I will probably have these type of days for the rest of my life. I don't know, I have never been through this before and never want to go through it again! Wether it is something the kids say, a motorcycle driving by, a picture, a friend who doesn't know and then I have to tell them what had happened all over again, making the quilts, etc.....it all triggers some type of emotion. It could be the smallest simplest thing that triggers the emotions and pain, the funny thing is is that all of those things can trigger sad emotions or happy emotions, believe it or not....they all do!!
I am so happy that I was able to spend 11 years of my life with a Godly man that loved me and cherished me like Christ loved the church! Most people don't experience this type of love at all in their lifetime. I was always his bride :) I was not just his wife...I was always his bride! There is a difference. Bride to me means a newness, a freshness an excitement, and preparation. Think about what the bride looks like... A, crisp beautiful dress, the fragrance of perfume, lips richly colored, and eyes sparkling, not a hair out of place. Usually we picture a youthfulness or an innocence or both. It is similar how our relationship with Christ, according to the Bible, remains... a fresh and new.
I am now and always have been, since I accepted HIS invitation of eternal salvation, the bride of Christ!! HE(the bridegroom) might lead us to a difficult place or two or three, but we can trust HIM that there will be a purpose in our stay there and HE will never forsake us. In Jeremiah 2:2 God spoke to Israel... He said to her, "I remember the devotion of your youth/how as a bride you loved me/ and followed me through the desert." I have followed my bridegroom to the desert......a place of Loss, Hurt, Pain, Solitude, Anger, and Loneliness. Even though I have been to these places in the past year I have found that I have grown closer and closer to HIM through these circumstances. I have and will go through these journeys and will continue with HIM right there by my side. I don't like the deserts that we go through, no one does, but if we can learn and grow in HIM through the deserts then the mountain top experiences will truly be mountain top experiences.
Always looking up ~ Christina~
I am so amazed how time just goes on. It has been 7 months since I have lost my husband. Just when I feel as though I can move on(those are not the words that I would particularly choose but I can't think of any others right now) something in my life happens to make that moment when I lost my husband feel like it was just yesterday. I will probably have these type of days for the rest of my life. I don't know, I have never been through this before and never want to go through it again! Wether it is something the kids say, a motorcycle driving by, a picture, a friend who doesn't know and then I have to tell them what had happened all over again, making the quilts, etc.....it all triggers some type of emotion. It could be the smallest simplest thing that triggers the emotions and pain, the funny thing is is that all of those things can trigger sad emotions or happy emotions, believe it or not....they all do!!
I am so happy that I was able to spend 11 years of my life with a Godly man that loved me and cherished me like Christ loved the church! Most people don't experience this type of love at all in their lifetime. I was always his bride :) I was not just his wife...I was always his bride! There is a difference. Bride to me means a newness, a freshness an excitement, and preparation. Think about what the bride looks like... A, crisp beautiful dress, the fragrance of perfume, lips richly colored, and eyes sparkling, not a hair out of place. Usually we picture a youthfulness or an innocence or both. It is similar how our relationship with Christ, according to the Bible, remains... a fresh and new.
I am now and always have been, since I accepted HIS invitation of eternal salvation, the bride of Christ!! HE(the bridegroom) might lead us to a difficult place or two or three, but we can trust HIM that there will be a purpose in our stay there and HE will never forsake us. In Jeremiah 2:2 God spoke to Israel... He said to her, "I remember the devotion of your youth/how as a bride you loved me/ and followed me through the desert." I have followed my bridegroom to the desert......a place of Loss, Hurt, Pain, Solitude, Anger, and Loneliness. Even though I have been to these places in the past year I have found that I have grown closer and closer to HIM through these circumstances. I have and will go through these journeys and will continue with HIM right there by my side. I don't like the deserts that we go through, no one does, but if we can learn and grow in HIM through the deserts then the mountain top experiences will truly be mountain top experiences.
Always looking up ~ Christina~
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