One Month Later

Today has been a very busy and productive day. I guess everyone was trying to keep me busy so that I wouldn't dwell upon the date of today. I went to the Gym, cleaned the kitchen with Kristen(thanks Kristen ! It wouldn't have gotten done without you), emptied out the travel trailer with the help of the commander and his wife Michelle, did almost all of the laundry(with the help of Carol), and went to football practice. But nothing could keep me so busy that I wouldn't remember that one month ago the love of my life went to be with our Lord Jesus Christ.
Aaron meant the world to me. He was my best friend, my confidant, my encourager, and the father of my children. Sometimes it is hard to believe that I will never be able to talk to him or hold him again while I am here on earth. I know that I will see him again one day in heaven but right now we(the kids included) want him. He was not perfect. None of us are. He was the one that the Lord blessed me to have for 11 years. He taught me so much. We did more in our 11 years together than most couples do in their lifetime. It is terribly hard to fathom that he is not going to ever walk through the door again.
I know that the Lord is helping me through this tragedy and will never leave me nor forsake me. Deuteronomy 31:6. The human side of me wants what I can't have and what no one else can give to me, which is Aaron.